I
belong here forgetting who I am
remembering
I leave tomorrow for the southern hemisphere
after Creole hoodoo foodie immersion at The Palace Cafe
Canal
Street a stream of people wearing summer rather well
New
Orleans rain soon steams so Spanish moss drinks more air
I
belong here remembering San Francisco sun and stun
walking
into the sky and Modernist hoorahs hellos wowees
Natasha
and I spilling tour talk for gigantic works in space
secrets around blue and yellow plates more useful than a tablecloth
I
belong here where you disappeared but stayed put
I'm
banking goodness and saving for my life
rollercoaster
freeways in Seattle flanked by soldier evergreens
disappointment
and knowing too much quite solved with pie
I
belong where squirrels finally looked like rats with pretty tails
the
B n B dolls house downstairs not haunted
a
mysterious small town packed with safety
surrounded
with corn and easy jokes and avoidance of difficulty
I
belong there on a road trip rough over expectations
falling
into real time without warning
knee
joints complaining about age and the silence of pain
junk
food scenery and increasingly larger crucifixes
I
surely belong in Graceland admiring the Jungle Room
Memphis
hotel swimming pool shaped like a ukelele or bass guitar
Lennon
said before Elvis there was nothing - billboards say so
then
riding into Lake Charles and Houston we half melted
I
belong where my mother's cowboy songs met Louis Armstrong
laughter a jam with peanut butter percussion
breakfast
or any meal less complete with TV news
and
true love appears a little worn out like favourite luggage
I
belong in the French quarter singing Janis Joplin late
fanning
myself with a pink Japanese gift
thinking
how beautiful men are at night and a distance
or
so close they almost inhabit you and then windows open
I
really do belong where the waiters treat me so kindly
losing
a few kilos in relaxation to hover just above my seat
glad
I found that amrka could disappoint and sadden me
before
the fantasy turned into a lurid painting on a black van
and yes I belong making mistakes and learning more history spells
gradually
coming to a standstill delighted with blueberries
watching
people make original moves unaware of their own beauty
every
day and ordinary - they transcend ideals with surprise
O
I belong where I am at any time from this moment
because
anywhere amrka lets me be myself and engulfs the acting
brave
because I'm terrified of everywhere but I still go out
taking
my place and collecting words for giving
And
I belong knowing I'm not ashamed of my feelings
nor
thinking someone else's to blame for my infinite world within
cosmic
or elastic the lone anybody view
a pulse gives away every attempt at statuary
we
belong together like any natural gang-creature - say
hedgehogs
a
little worse for wear such as with favourite toys
the
world plays with us and flings our precious selves downstairs
we're
in a 1930s B movie in tight costumes or monster suits
true
- belong where we are at any time and we love each other
the
alternative's close to denying beauty even with venetian blinds
simply
in the business of art and solitude transforming irritants
including
our view of anyone anywhere any time and ourselves
I fly back to New Zealand tomorrow, 23rd July 2014, thank you to everyone who I visited with, and good luck to us all.
Thanks for reading, and please do check out my latest novel here, www.amazon.com/Glam-Rock-Boyfriends-imaginary-memoir/dp/0473266644
or my home page www.bookcouncil.org.nz/writers/alexanderraewyn.html and also this latest poetry book from Random House features my work, it's on the best-selling list at present - www.randomhouse.co.nz/books/siobhan-harvey-harry-ricketts-and-james-norcliffe/essential-new-zealand-poems-9781775534594.aspx
Comments welcome.
or my home page www.bookcouncil.org.nz/writers/alexanderraewyn.html and also this latest poetry book from Random House features my work, it's on the best-selling list at present - www.randomhouse.co.nz/books/siobhan-harvey-harry-ricketts-and-james-norcliffe/essential-new-zealand-poems-9781775534594.aspx
Comments welcome.